FUN IN THE SUN.. (Perhentian Kecil trip : 14th to 16th March 2014)

 All five of us met up at Hentian Putra on 13th March just before 10.00 pm. The bus was delayed for more than an hour and everyone looked extremely tired. Asuad was not well that night and still had to work during the day of departure and Izy's mum was still hospitalised at that moment. Kamal and KA seemed ready for the trip.

We reached Kuala Besut jetty the next morning at around 6 am. After leaving our belongings at the travel agent office, we all went to the toilet to perform our morning "ritual". Empty stomach needed to be refilled again and we had our breakfast at the food court nearby. After a humble breakfast, we soon embarked for our boat trip to the island and was stunned by the gorgeous view of this shirtless Pak Arab. Simply yummy and delicious. When we reached the island Izy soon realised he accidentally left his backpack at the jetty. And the endless drama began. Asuad as the trip leader was so committed in handling our reservation and tantrums from the very beginning. His patience and commitment handling the four divas amazed me.

We soon checked in right after lunch and had a short nap to recharge ourselves. After the tea break, Asuad and I decided to explore the resort and enjoyed our photography session. We soon took a dip in the sea just in front of our chalet and the rest joined us later. The view was absolutely breath taking  and the water was so clear and inviting. When you had too many divas at one place and at the same time, the world seemed to be under our feet. In spite of the unwanted attention sometimes (thanks to Izy) we couldn't care less because we just wanted to have good times. After dinner we all decided to cross the other side of the Perhentian Kecil Island and decided to  witness the  this other side of the island claimed to be more happening that what we had on our side. There was beach disco and some stalls but i guessed we all just sat on the sand and enjoyed our sisha. There so many eye candies to choose from and we all just sat in a group doing our own things. It was very liberating indeed to just do your own things but also knowing you still have your friends around.

After breakfast the next day, we all headed to Sun Rise Cafe and waited for our water activities. Izy seemed so excited and seemed possessed by his pareo. It  was hilarious to see him running and moving around gracefully with that piece of fabric. He was enjoying his moment and I soon realised how one can be overjoyed with life simplest pleasure and in this case a piece of printed fabric. And i'm still smiling. Kamal on the other hand seemed to always be a part of the group but had his own distinctive way in secluding his way out slowly from  the group especially when he noticed some eye candies passing by. I laughed seeing him and his determination always inspire me. "GIGIH ko Kamal!!!!!!"

KA was most of the time very reserved. A soft spoken person by nature, he can be deceiving. He flies like a butterfly and sting like a bee. I had tough times convincing him that I'm no threat to him. He hesitated but I continuously nagged him to tagged all the photos we took together. Just a few if not all but not bad for a start. KA... if you're reading this, i want you to know I love u darling.... he he....

TO BE CONTINUED.............sleepy.....zzzzzzz

THE FANTASTIC FOUR

I can't quite recall when exactly i started to know each and every single one of them. But one thing for sure, a single friendship led to another and things couldn't get better. Just when i thought that my life wouldn't be the same due to the fact that some of my closest friends finally get married. (and i lost contact with most of them too).

 I began to ask myself whether i'll fit into this new younger group or should i say GEN Y. It was tough at first, but things gets better each day. They never failed to make me laugh with their wits and authenticity. They are all very genuine, and most importantly not afraid to speak their minds. They may be younger biologically, but their maturities surpass those who are much older. They're among the most understanding people i've ever known and met.

They adress me as "bonda" as an indicator of my seniority (or age??) and i feel very much respected and thankful for that. They may seem to be clumsy sometimes (and i love them for that) but they truly are survivors in this world of lies and injustice. Each of them is very dear to me in his own way.

I'd like to begin with Kamal. Petite yet saucy. And he's loud in spite of his size. He couldn't care less about what others have to say as long as he knows he's on the right track. I smile whenever i hang up with him and listen attentively to his stories as i seldom meet him compared to the other three. He's spontaneous most of the time and one will never has the heart to pull that long face to this wonderful being. He's very entertaining in his own way and hardly realise it.

Then, i have Izy. Tall and true diva whenever he holds the microphone. He appears childish and ignorant but i realised that i've been wrong all these while. He knows what he wants and go straight for it. He reminds me a lot when i was younger minus the "bulu" (sorry Izy...). Feeling a little bit insecure with his appearance, i have to continuously reminding him how gorgeous and attractive he really is. All he needs is confidence and i'm proud to announce he's working well on it.

Next is Asuad.... Unlike the other three Asuad is the LOUDEST... yes.... and i mean it. He always know what to say or answer in return in the most sarcastic way ever without trying too hard. He popped like pop corns when we he sensed intimidation from us. When we "sangkak" him in every way possible he'll become so elegantly defensive. I have a strong feeling that he'll be a very successful person one day due to that determination he possesses. We are fighting for the same guy (if you know what i mean..he2) but he always do it with style....

Last but not least KA.... He's possesses the confidence that is second to nothing. If he falls, he'll cry but he certainly gets back on track in no time. His resiliency impresses me. He appears "dry" but trust me he's the most sensitive person in the group. He has the highest level of empathy in my opinion and continues to be a darling among us. I've learned a great deal of things in life from him and i'm pretty sure he doesn't know how much he has inspired me in so many ways. If i ever get stranded on an island, i shall choose him to be my partner. I dont know why but i guess i have so much time to to figure out later.

To all of you guys... thank you for being there through good and bad times... Thank you for making my every single day a meaningful one. I totally found a new respect on all of you. And for many years to come i'm sure our friendship will grow stronger. Maybe you'll be pushing me on my wheelchair one day although i'm pretty sure that it'll be the other way around. I shall still stand and walk proudly in my stilettos even at the age of 70...he he...

And for this, my deepest gratitude to Allah for the opportunity to get to know these wonderful and beautiful people. I wouldn't want it in any other way and love them the way they are. I must have done some good things in the past to have them as my friends, "adik" and "anak". Till then, see you guys at "somewhere only we know" on this coming 14 to 16 March....

MOVING ON............

   We've been good friends for at least 10 years and it's official that it finally comes to an end. Someone who used to remind me that i can count on her through good and bad times. To be fair, she was always there the first few months when i needed  support the most and unfortunately things started to change soon after.
    Text messages were never replied. Let alone e-mail or phone calls. I tried to stay positive and told myself that she might have been occupied with things. She "like" everyone's post on FB except mine. She even commented on certain posts but never mine. She told me that she's extremely busy lately and promised to catch up with me one fine day. I waited and waited and finally to figure out that i was removed from her friends list.
    It's just not her acting or behaving this way. Our friendship has always been based on trust and transparency. We promised that if any thing goes wrong we shall sit down and talk and discuss about it. I was very disappointed with the way she handles the issue this time. to make matters worse, i'm not even sure what the issue is all about until now. And she left me wondering what i've done wrong and i began to fall apart. There were self-blaming and confusion crawling inside me for a couple of months and my life was never the same again.
  Someone wise reminded me that it's not my fault especially when i'm never sure what the issue is all about. He also reminded me i was not the one who stepped out of the relationship and walked away and for that i should not blame myself for what had happened. and as far as misunderstanding is concerned it takes two tango.
  I can proudly say that i can now put my head up and smile knowing that i could now let go the guilt in me. I was certainly happy when we were together but i guess i'm happier without her now. And to you my dear best friend...  it was certainly an honour to know you and thank you for the greatest moments we shared together... the memories will be treasured. But for now i need to MOVE ON...............

A friend in need is a friend indeed

I always believe that one can always defeats an army of enemies or problems simply because of a single best friend is always by his side. I upheld this this believe for more than 38 years old only to discover that it's no longer valid. Everything i hoped for in a best friend fell apart and my heart broke into pieces....
Being unemployed for almost 8 months, the world seems to turns its back on me. Months by months passed by with several unsuccessful interviews leaving me wonder whether there's such thing as second chance. I wanted hard to believe this in spite of the fact that things doesn't go my way lately. Not even one.
Just when i felt like turning to a so called best friend for undivided supports and strength to carry on, i discovered that i'm no longer welcome. There were too many dramas like silent treatment, unreplied emails and text messages. I felt devastated.... And my world wad tumbling down..
TO BE CONTINUED

 betrayed too....

ISU KENAIKAN HARGA PETROL.......... LAGI & LAGI!!!!!!!!!

As announced by our PM yesterday (3rd Sept. 2013), there's a rise in price of RM0.20 for RON 95 petrol effective 4th Sept 2013. And as expected, endless  positive and negative reactions from the the public have finally inspired me to write.

 Hundreds in thousands or perhaps millions of posts have been posted in FB and other social media networks. I haven't posted any posts on this issue, and until now i manage to hold my tongue. I do however enjoy reading comments, opinions, debates etc on the issue.

One of the comments that caught my attention was "harga minyak naik tu satu hal, yang pasti harga barang2 pengguna yang lain pun naik gak"...... when i came to think about it, there's a truth behind this.. Back then, with RM 200 you managed to walk from a hypermarket with a full trolley......How do i know??? Having to do monthly groceries shopping has turned me into a wiser consumer
(i hope).... But now things have changed drastically and affected us; the middle as well low-income households. We often heard people asociate this with political, global, consumerism and economical point of views. In spite of this, things never changed for the good. Prices of basic consumer goods continue to hike  and showing no signs of recovery at all. Not many changes have happened these last few years. But life goes on bitterly....

Without realising it, we've evolutionised all these years to spend more sensibly. We began to purchase only things that are really necessary. We avoided impulse purchases and seeked for better altelnatives like online shoppings. hypermarkets, wholesale outlets etc. Some may worked and some may not. But we've changed..and that's the keyword... We deserved a pat on our backs for these efforts showing how we finally evolutionised to meet the challeges of the modern living........Change is a must!!!!!

CHANGES.........
You've studied hard throughout your life. spent hours a day to study... after years of struggling u finally graduared. to make it short... after painful months of unemployment, u finally got urself a job... a real job... but soon u decided it's a job  never a career....u moved on and job hoppings n there u were, finally ended up with a career that best describes u..... just when things went so well, u were informed that u'd be transfered...there'll be massive changes in your routines and principles..dealing with completely different stakeholders...and you were told to absorb the new environment like sponge and u did.....and u didnt like it..and u thought u could never change or adapt to the new surroundings.... NEVER..  but then u realized u've CHANGED.... u are more selective about friends, u are learning new things and making new friends... friends u thought u never had...... and of cousre there changes in other aspects too... your wrinkles, size etc... my point is CHANGE is a must... like it or not....want it or not... changes are necessary to give ways to new things in life.... so friends... be prepared for changes... all the time....and be ready to explore new possibilities and potentials....GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!

P/S: These are images of me changing....physiquely....

JIWA KACAU.......

How would you feel?
When whatever you do never seems to be good enough. Your every move is observed. Your every action is scrutinized and worse u are made to believe that you are far from your target.... In spite of all your endless efforts to make things right (or are they??) Deep down inside you're certain that you're on the right track.. When that 'someone' begins to question your efficiency and comittment...they seem to know youself better..(must be joking right???)

When these happened, the world seemed to turn its back on you... You feel unappreciated, not needed as much as demotivated. You started your each new day feeling under the weather n couldn't help it but to compare yourself with the favourful ones.. those high achievers... now you are feeling even smaller.. the world seemed to be less colourful as you think your life is surrounded by the darkest clouds ever....You knew this is not right and it has to stop.... but you just didn't know how...you began praying.. hoping to turn a new leaf each day... but you knew there must be something you can do without just sitting back and hoping miracles to happen.....

One fine day, you woke up trying to be positive...only to be told again that you're not GOOD enough...U felt awful but u decided that you would not allow others to take control over your life..You started your first baby step.. at your own pace..And smiled..for no obvious reasons but you felt great.... and u feel prepared this time to be observed, scrutinized and even to be told that you're a loser...You must be that great that they expected all the perfections from you...ironically by making you feel imperfect..And you said to yourself.. there's still hope........................TO BE CONTINUED