CHANGES.........
You've studied hard throughout your life. spent hours a day to study... after years of struggling u finally graduared. to make it short... after painful months of unemployment, u finally got urself a job... a real job... but soon u decided it's a job  never a career....u moved on and job hoppings n there u were, finally ended up with a career that best describes u..... just when things went so well, u were informed that u'd be transfered...there'll be massive changes in your routines and principles..dealing with completely different stakeholders...and you were told to absorb the new environment like sponge and u did.....and u didnt like it..and u thought u could never change or adapt to the new surroundings.... NEVER..  but then u realized u've CHANGED.... u are more selective about friends, u are learning new things and making new friends... friends u thought u never had...... and of cousre there changes in other aspects too... your wrinkles, size etc... my point is CHANGE is a must... like it or not....want it or not... changes are necessary to give ways to new things in life.... so friends... be prepared for changes... all the time....and be ready to explore new possibilities and potentials....GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!

P/S: These are images of me changing....physiquely....

JIWA KACAU.......

How would you feel?
When whatever you do never seems to be good enough. Your every move is observed. Your every action is scrutinized and worse u are made to believe that you are far from your target.... In spite of all your endless efforts to make things right (or are they??) Deep down inside you're certain that you're on the right track.. When that 'someone' begins to question your efficiency and comittment...they seem to know youself better..(must be joking right???)

When these happened, the world seemed to turn its back on you... You feel unappreciated, not needed as much as demotivated. You started your each new day feeling under the weather n couldn't help it but to compare yourself with the favourful ones.. those high achievers... now you are feeling even smaller.. the world seemed to be less colourful as you think your life is surrounded by the darkest clouds ever....You knew this is not right and it has to stop.... but you just didn't know how...you began praying.. hoping to turn a new leaf each day... but you knew there must be something you can do without just sitting back and hoping miracles to happen.....

One fine day, you woke up trying to be positive...only to be told again that you're not GOOD enough...U felt awful but u decided that you would not allow others to take control over your life..You started your first baby step.. at your own pace..And smiled..for no obvious reasons but you felt great.... and u feel prepared this time to be observed, scrutinized and even to be told that you're a loser...You must be that great that they expected all the perfections from you...ironically by making you feel imperfect..And you said to yourself.. there's still hope........................TO BE CONTINUED

My first blogging attempt

My phobia towards ICT is overwhelming..... being someone with almost no desire and exposure  on ICT during my childhood years has made my studies of ICT in the university a dreadful experience. With programming made compulsory during my first year i soon realized that there's no way i could catch up with the latest ICT.... i learned things the hard way from as basic as exploring the keyboard to something as advance as programming. throughout my learning years i slowly developed willingness to finally give it a try to every ICT application possible at my own pace.....and here i am today writing in my own blog and still exploring..................TO BE CONTINUED.....