THE FANTASTIC FOUR

I can't quite recall when exactly i started to know each and every single one of them. But one thing for sure, a single friendship led to another and things couldn't get better. Just when i thought that my life wouldn't be the same due to the fact that some of my closest friends finally get married. (and i lost contact with most of them too).

 I began to ask myself whether i'll fit into this new younger group or should i say GEN Y. It was tough at first, but things gets better each day. They never failed to make me laugh with their wits and authenticity. They are all very genuine, and most importantly not afraid to speak their minds. They may be younger biologically, but their maturities surpass those who are much older. They're among the most understanding people i've ever known and met.

They adress me as "bonda" as an indicator of my seniority (or age??) and i feel very much respected and thankful for that. They may seem to be clumsy sometimes (and i love them for that) but they truly are survivors in this world of lies and injustice. Each of them is very dear to me in his own way.

I'd like to begin with Kamal. Petite yet saucy. And he's loud in spite of his size. He couldn't care less about what others have to say as long as he knows he's on the right track. I smile whenever i hang up with him and listen attentively to his stories as i seldom meet him compared to the other three. He's spontaneous most of the time and one will never has the heart to pull that long face to this wonderful being. He's very entertaining in his own way and hardly realise it.

Then, i have Izy. Tall and true diva whenever he holds the microphone. He appears childish and ignorant but i realised that i've been wrong all these while. He knows what he wants and go straight for it. He reminds me a lot when i was younger minus the "bulu" (sorry Izy...). Feeling a little bit insecure with his appearance, i have to continuously reminding him how gorgeous and attractive he really is. All he needs is confidence and i'm proud to announce he's working well on it.

Next is Asuad.... Unlike the other three Asuad is the LOUDEST... yes.... and i mean it. He always know what to say or answer in return in the most sarcastic way ever without trying too hard. He popped like pop corns when we he sensed intimidation from us. When we "sangkak" him in every way possible he'll become so elegantly defensive. I have a strong feeling that he'll be a very successful person one day due to that determination he possesses. We are fighting for the same guy (if you know what i mean..he2) but he always do it with style....

Last but not least KA.... He's possesses the confidence that is second to nothing. If he falls, he'll cry but he certainly gets back on track in no time. His resiliency impresses me. He appears "dry" but trust me he's the most sensitive person in the group. He has the highest level of empathy in my opinion and continues to be a darling among us. I've learned a great deal of things in life from him and i'm pretty sure he doesn't know how much he has inspired me in so many ways. If i ever get stranded on an island, i shall choose him to be my partner. I dont know why but i guess i have so much time to to figure out later.

To all of you guys... thank you for being there through good and bad times... Thank you for making my every single day a meaningful one. I totally found a new respect on all of you. And for many years to come i'm sure our friendship will grow stronger. Maybe you'll be pushing me on my wheelchair one day although i'm pretty sure that it'll be the other way around. I shall still stand and walk proudly in my stilettos even at the age of 70...he he...

And for this, my deepest gratitude to Allah for the opportunity to get to know these wonderful and beautiful people. I wouldn't want it in any other way and love them the way they are. I must have done some good things in the past to have them as my friends, "adik" and "anak". Till then, see you guys at "somewhere only we know" on this coming 14 to 16 March....

MOVING ON............

   We've been good friends for at least 10 years and it's official that it finally comes to an end. Someone who used to remind me that i can count on her through good and bad times. To be fair, she was always there the first few months when i needed  support the most and unfortunately things started to change soon after.
    Text messages were never replied. Let alone e-mail or phone calls. I tried to stay positive and told myself that she might have been occupied with things. She "like" everyone's post on FB except mine. She even commented on certain posts but never mine. She told me that she's extremely busy lately and promised to catch up with me one fine day. I waited and waited and finally to figure out that i was removed from her friends list.
    It's just not her acting or behaving this way. Our friendship has always been based on trust and transparency. We promised that if any thing goes wrong we shall sit down and talk and discuss about it. I was very disappointed with the way she handles the issue this time. to make matters worse, i'm not even sure what the issue is all about until now. And she left me wondering what i've done wrong and i began to fall apart. There were self-blaming and confusion crawling inside me for a couple of months and my life was never the same again.
  Someone wise reminded me that it's not my fault especially when i'm never sure what the issue is all about. He also reminded me i was not the one who stepped out of the relationship and walked away and for that i should not blame myself for what had happened. and as far as misunderstanding is concerned it takes two tango.
  I can proudly say that i can now put my head up and smile knowing that i could now let go the guilt in me. I was certainly happy when we were together but i guess i'm happier without her now. And to you my dear best friend...  it was certainly an honour to know you and thank you for the greatest moments we shared together... the memories will be treasured. But for now i need to MOVE ON...............