JIWA KACAU.......

How would you feel?
When whatever you do never seems to be good enough. Your every move is observed. Your every action is scrutinized and worse u are made to believe that you are far from your target.... In spite of all your endless efforts to make things right (or are they??) Deep down inside you're certain that you're on the right track.. When that 'someone' begins to question your efficiency and comittment...they seem to know youself better..(must be joking right???)

When these happened, the world seemed to turn its back on you... You feel unappreciated, not needed as much as demotivated. You started your each new day feeling under the weather n couldn't help it but to compare yourself with the favourful ones.. those high achievers... now you are feeling even smaller.. the world seemed to be less colourful as you think your life is surrounded by the darkest clouds ever....You knew this is not right and it has to stop.... but you just didn't know how...you began praying.. hoping to turn a new leaf each day... but you knew there must be something you can do without just sitting back and hoping miracles to happen.....

One fine day, you woke up trying to be positive...only to be told again that you're not GOOD enough...U felt awful but u decided that you would not allow others to take control over your life..You started your first baby step.. at your own pace..And smiled..for no obvious reasons but you felt great.... and u feel prepared this time to be observed, scrutinized and even to be told that you're a loser...You must be that great that they expected all the perfections from you...ironically by making you feel imperfect..And you said to yourself.. there's still hope........................TO BE CONTINUED