MOVING ON............

   We've been good friends for at least 10 years and it's official that it finally comes to an end. Someone who used to remind me that i can count on her through good and bad times. To be fair, she was always there the first few months when i needed  support the most and unfortunately things started to change soon after.
    Text messages were never replied. Let alone e-mail or phone calls. I tried to stay positive and told myself that she might have been occupied with things. She "like" everyone's post on FB except mine. She even commented on certain posts but never mine. She told me that she's extremely busy lately and promised to catch up with me one fine day. I waited and waited and finally to figure out that i was removed from her friends list.
    It's just not her acting or behaving this way. Our friendship has always been based on trust and transparency. We promised that if any thing goes wrong we shall sit down and talk and discuss about it. I was very disappointed with the way she handles the issue this time. to make matters worse, i'm not even sure what the issue is all about until now. And she left me wondering what i've done wrong and i began to fall apart. There were self-blaming and confusion crawling inside me for a couple of months and my life was never the same again.
  Someone wise reminded me that it's not my fault especially when i'm never sure what the issue is all about. He also reminded me i was not the one who stepped out of the relationship and walked away and for that i should not blame myself for what had happened. and as far as misunderstanding is concerned it takes two tango.
  I can proudly say that i can now put my head up and smile knowing that i could now let go the guilt in me. I was certainly happy when we were together but i guess i'm happier without her now. And to you my dear best friend...  it was certainly an honour to know you and thank you for the greatest moments we shared together... the memories will be treasured. But for now i need to MOVE ON...............